It has been almost 3 months since the break up. I have done a lot of good things for myself! I am waaaaaaay more active then I have ever been. I lost a lot of weight. I have made lots of new friends. I do fun activities 6 out of 7 nights a week. Unfortunately, my new found lust for life, is lacking one thing. I was warned that she was a heart breaker from the beginning, and she swore to never break mine. But, as I do with most relationships ( friends and lovers ) , I took things for granted, and feel that I am the cause for the end results.
Not a single minute goes by where I do not think of her. I need to move on, but I have never felt so weak in this department. I have met a lot of new women, and have gone on a fair amount of dates, but as my friend Sinead always said " nothing compares to you ". That was cheesy and lame, with the borderline gay, haha. I apologize.
I am pretty sure she has a new boyfriend. I don't know for a fact, but that is the assumption I am making. I lost all contact with her. I do not see her on myspace, Ichat, and I erased her number out of my phone so I cannot call or text her. And, I guess I am just typing this thing to vent. I don't have anyone to vent to. I may have ruined, at least temporarily, my friendship with the one friend out here, who I feel I could REALLY talk to.
I Love life, and I love what I have done with myself. I look great and feel great. I just think I may have been brainwashed into thinking I was going to spend the rest of my life with this girl, and I need the mind warp to wear off. So, in the meantime there is nothing for me to do. Time heals all. I just wish the clock's hands would spin a little faster...
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